top of page
  • Writer's pictureBloomfield College Underground

Two Poems from Deanner Campbell

Free Bird


I feel fire in my bones—not the good type,

kind of feening for this guy—he’s the hood type,

Always walking by him and he always notices me,

cause of the arch in my back but he don’t know it’s me


I think about him every day in every way, I kind of wanna leave but I rather stay,

Cause he gives me attention, no love and affection, and at the end of the day,

I give him an erection—he said he’s not a sinner but I peeped that shit,

He’s trynna give me something, he can keep that shit,

I finally see the picture he persuaded me to paint,

I told him I’m a saint but to him I really ain’t


This shit a breeze like I’m skating through a rink,

told him to make my mind cum and he always drew a blank,

but no one has fueled my flames in such a long time,

this is the right moment but the wrong time,

Gathered everything with me and I back tracked twice,

heard if you pet a dog correctly, that they would act nice,

I understand what you have to offer but I have so much more to give,

You’re adapted to this lifestyle, alright I get it, you only wanna hit it, 50/50 and split


I’m not upset, don’t need a man that deceives me—want a man that always needs me,

Fuck me correct and feed me, at the end of the day, he’s not the one I’ll be walking to,

It’s funny cause he thinks he’s the only one I’m talking to, and you never have to

worry about me stalking you, cause your place of work will be the only walls

you’ll be walking through. . .Like a child, he takes cookies from a jar

but he ain’t gettin’ mine—ok I might be lyin’,

Cause he sure is fine…..but not that fine,

The amount of men who get over on women,

what is the ratio, like the wind I blew him away, no need for fellatio,

I'm not basic, please don't test my patience, I wanna relationship

But he only wants relations. . .He think he won the lotto,

Blink twice and you'll miss it, I'm here playing men's hearts

Like a raffle ticket, trynna find a spot down where can kick it,

I wanna stick him but he just rather stick it, Never drove a stick

Before, I drive an automatic, it's tragic, I dreamt about it but never had it,

He drives the women crazy and he always seems to merge,

He finally met a lady and he can't control the urge,

Gave him the green light like I'm smoking on a herb,

He think he steering right but he can't control the curves,

Huh, men, men with the nerve, I gotta find what's right for me,

Don't know if this is it—the things we search for we don't need


Push me to the limit, I won't speed, rip my heart out my chest

and I won't bleed, playing a woman's heart is mass destruction,

You must think I'm easy or something, at the end of the day,

I'm not the one he's touching, gave him a little tongue,

Now he think we’re fucking, he's like one emotion,

but I’m a whole mood, he taste like candy yea, but I'm soul food


I like kings who inspire their Queens to want more,

He likes bad bitches, you know the things that walk on all fours,

If I’m a bad bitch, I open my own doors, take care of my own property,

why would I say it's all yours, every time I lick my lips, He be thinking ‘bout rubbers,

but daddy you gon’ have to wait in line with the others,


So yea I understand, you really wanna bone,

no I don't gotta man but I got batteries at home,

Aww man just leave me alone, let me be free,

let me be in my zone.





 


I’m Sorry


I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I am sorry,

Sorry for not listening when you were talking, you wanted me to stay but I kept walking,

I do not understand why I'm like this, I turn on and off like a night switch,

See I really wanna take a shot at certain things but I'm afraid that I might miss,

That's why I'm hesitant about certain things, I only let a few see me

When I'm crying, They laugh at me when I hit the ground

They hate when I am flying, I don't worry about that

Cause I'm in the midst of trying, I don't automatically cry

When I know someone is dying, some people are better at certain things,

I try not to outskate, outskate them but that shit is like an outdate,

I'm sorry mom and dad when I was going with the winds

With my friends breaking rules and staying out late,

You raised a lady but I do have flaws, I hope you see that,

When I disappeared to places I wasn't supposed to be at,

I am destined to be great, ok I'll be that, ok for Christ sakes,

Trust me I'll be back, it all falls down, so I pull the levy,

Things are getting extremely heavy,

I'm sorry you wanted a relationship with me and I said no,

Cause I was too scared and I wasn't ready,

I'm sorry for not expressing myself when shit hits the fan,

I hold things in to avoid getting hurt,

No, I never meant to lie to you,

Maybe I should cry to you, but I ain't doing that shit,

But I'm still sorry, sorry as I could be,

I'm sorry that attract people that are too afraid to say sorry to me,

I'm sorry that I can't always be the one that you trust in,

I'm sorry that I don't give a fuck about yo function, sometimes,

I only smile when the sun shines,

I hate judging people's life ‘cause I don't want no one to run mines,

I'm a little selfish, but by little I mean a lot,

Selfish with lovers, selfish with food, selfish

With friends, my selfishness extends, so far out,

I want everything and everyone to myself and if I don't know you,

I guess you're on your own, but if you mean something to me, I spoil you,

You're the one I'm loyal to, I try to give my all to you until I'm empty handed,

Emotionally unstable so I'm taken for granted,

I'm sorry that I make you feel this way,

But I need you to know that I'm still growing.

0 views0 comments

Recent Posts

See All

Yorumlar


bottom of page