Nameless
I am the girl with woodburn hair who's been in and out of the darkest depths of her mind teenage joy on the brink of adulthood
seventh grade was so terrifying
Groups of girls whose main goal was to grate my skin
four years of names four years of threats four years of bluster
for years I had enough I never wanted to come back and I never came back
It wasn't my fault I liked school Sometimes parents are careless
I sat in my plastic home in my head I didn't know what to do with my life My mind was my biggest enemy
You are worthless You will never be smart You will never get out
It came to the point where I wanted to self-destruct my woodburn hair charred to charcoal the names became reality the pitless abyss in my stomach The sensation of forever falling
or at least that's what I told myself
one day things became different
one touch one hug one day kiss
a best friends love
a small ember of hope ignited by devotion a reason to wake up kept burning by us
I still feel it dim it's hard to keep it burning but I am determined to be
Strong Diligent Learning
I have come a long way since my castaway I can't wait for the day I radiate with flame
To be the girl with woodburn hair
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